super swollen eye

D; i woke up yesterday with a swollen eye=( my right eye is swollen, dunno what happened tho. doctors said its an infection so i gotta put eyedrops on it. eyedrops hurt =( im so afraid of them. nelson took my phone into the bathroom to read the text messages =.= he didnt wash his hands when he came out...i hope he didnt use the bathroom lol omg in 131 gym theres like locker rooms on the side n i went in, its so dark andscary like one missed call. cant believe i walked in alone.

last night i had a dream that i was leading worship along side nelson. lol crazyydream that wont be happening for a while but it was great and i remember everything went smoothly. i hope that dream will happen someday although i wont have the chance of being JAMS leader in the future since kassia is there and she is awesome. i also remember saying god is good all the time, all the time god is good. lol thats one of the things i remember calvin saying back when he was here. 

when i see them both i wish the old days were back cuz that feeling was the same like it was a couple months ago. that friendly feeling in my heart of warmth. 

but sadly i have this feeling in my heart...i dont want the same to happen where everything went wrong...i gotta see where this feeling leads me...