it just makes me smile

today was parent appreciation day. when i woke up this morning i remembered the happiest dream that i had. i remembered this one part that we interlocked arms crossing a street. it could feel my heart beating so fast but a split second later i jumped away and knew it was a dream because i knew it couldn't happen. he never had a girlfriend before. i learned of that today. yea as the day went on it was fine. we kinda messed up the songs today...we changed songs last minute which made it worse. i lacked confidence today when i was translating :[ i couldn't translate off the top of my head. i was so nervous and afraid. my heart was beating so fast and i was shaking...i wasn't as nervous when the day went on. i probably sounded bad...but the day was nice :] we played the banana game! i had to eat a banana and a bao! but i threw up the bao afterwards...
after we were done with everything me felix stanley and carmen went around EC then was thinking of karaoking but we didn't. we bumped into debby so we went to soho with her. stanley was also job hunting ;D he got a Levi's application and ae was only hiring full time. i went into this beautiful furniture store that had amazing stuff. there was this see through piano!! i loved it! and the chairs there was awesome nd looked so comfortable. i would def. get my furniture there but its so pricey! i had a good day :]

i'm so glad to see that he IMed me when i got home :] but i know he's not looking for anything more then friendship. i remembered someones words. we only care about love at this age when we should be focusing on God. it still makes me happy. we talked for about 3 nd half hours. :] we always talk. like i don't even plan out what to say it just comes to me what i wanna say to him. its so comfortable talking to him. as of today 3,315 kb of chat on his new sn too. we didnt talk much back then but during his trip in spring break we started talking everyday after that. when he was away he talked to me on aim and we had chats about random stuff. i really do have a crush on him but i just can't use the word love yet. its too frequently used and not even used in the right context. except for loving God. i'm really just happy seeing him and talking to him. i look for him through the crowds and i find him. :] its what a crush can bring. his joy and happiness brings me joy and happiness. i would leave my first time karaoking to be with him. i would do even the smallest things that matter. he might not remember but i do. i like the way it is now. we're always talking and having fun together.my aim statuses relfect on his too. a crush has changed me so much in a good way. i hope the summer goes well with him ;] and i'll be seeing him tomorrow.