he just makes me smile!!!

i gotta start out with the dream i had last night. he was in it again ;] this time it was him and his other friend playing guitar and drums at church. that's all i really remember but he's in my dreams so much now!! i feel so connected to him in a way :] he may not remember when we started talking to much but i do <3

i had common time today so i went to stuy and i was gonna give liana a surprise!! but she didnt pick up :[ i thought she left at 2 but she gets out 330. and by then i was at the ferry already. it's so hard dragging justin to hb =.= i was gonna go to battery park with him to hb with carmen but he wanted to go home. it was mad weird not letting go of him on the street. kinda akward too >.> so i couldnt get him to go to battery park nd he ran off to the train. yes i was being stubborn lol i really wanted to play! so i followed him to the ferry, i actually wanted to play in staten island. lol i saw william at the ferry and we went on the ferry together. when we got off the ferry in staten island justin tried to get away but once again i wouldnt let go of his bag lolol but he still got away...he had to go home D: and i fell again but i scratched up my elbow a bit this time. so then i went to hb with david and william. william suck =p justin can beat him hahas. i got home pretty late tho. at 8 =T i was hoping to get home earlier. got loads of hw!


i go in depth with every word he says to me :[ i'm trying to figure how he thinks of me....thats bad. today i felt so happy just having to grab onto someone i really like. although he may call me unwilling to let go it should show just how much i like him...this is truly different from anything i felt before. but as he just said on aim, im not a friend. i'm a sister to him. that's all, nothing more then a sister. and i really think he thinks of me as a sister and nothing else. unlike me i like the weirdest guys. not excatly weird but the average azn that is different to me. i have the greatest time just talking to him. i like it now. just talking and i'm laughing ang smiling at everything he says ;] i hope it stays like this forever. i don't want this happiness to leave although i know he just thinks of me as a sister i think of his as more. i think of him as someone i want to be with forever. he's just great. talking about the weirdest things and helping me out whenever.


~happines with JC