words of hope

"live simply so others can simply live" - elizabeth seaton.


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selling manga!!

Dramacon - book 1-3[full series] $20 mint condition
Made in Heaven - book 1&2[full series] $15 new
Chikyu Misaki- bk1-3[full series] $20 mint condition
Rurouni Kenshin - bk2 $5 new
Ouran High School Host Club - bk1 $5 new
Gadget - bk1 $6 new
Oath to Love and Passion - bk 1 $6 new

well that's all i'm selling but i hope that i can actually sell them...not gonna have much luck tho =T i finally went to handball practice today after missing out on like mad long. hoffy wasn't mad but happy that us freshies were going again. i'm thinking of going to the game tomorow but like bible study and i gotta give in syep application at cpc. i think i missed dance practice today =[ at least things arent going that bad. for Jesus day amanda says that Sams band might be doing it so that would be one less thing to worry about. I'm glad that God helped me through this stressful time. He is there for anyone in need.

i been thinking too much about it. i shouldn't. it's like we're best buddies, playing hb all the time right? friends last longer then anything<3

stressful month coming

may is gonna be one stressful month...
Mondays-handball/dance
Tuesdays-dance? practice for Jesus Day
Wednesdays- handball/dance, youth corner
Thursdays- handball/dance
Fridays- dance, bible study.

May 9th, Parent Appreciation day
May 16th, Natural History Museum
May 22nd, Culture show
June 3rd, Jesus Day

i could tell today that Hoffy was getting kind of mad that we weren't going to games or practice and he never sees us. i need to know how to manage everything better. i shouldn't have taken up so many things when i can't handle them...culture show, Jesus day, handball, and church. i really want to let go of one thing except for church but its too late to do that without causing trouble for other people. =T this is so stressful! i dont even know how to deal with everything! i hope it rains on some days so i dont need to go to handball but it's so selfish saying that. i really shouldn't have taken up so many things to do. i know for a fact i can get homework and everything done but all these other things i need to do are making me so stressful. i kinda dont' want to be in jesus day now but they need me so they can get 605 to practice and i don't know if they can go without me. i really don't know how to work everything out. handball i have been putting aside and they have been noticing so i really dont want to have a bad impression. dance i really want to do it but they have random practice days and i been cutting back on that too. im not gonna have a social life for a while...i'm really thinking of going to handball on friday but its bible study! i don't want to give up that cuz i learn so much at bible study. i don't think i'll be going to seekers for a while, maybe after this month i'll go and after everything is done. Jesus day and Culture show will be done by the beginning of june then things will calm down a bit. but right now i needa plan thing out so i don't get too stressed. i hope everything works out..

mondays are sukerss :[

i skipped hb game again today =T i feel bad for skipping so much but my leg hurt so much! even more than yesterday D: i can hardly walk up stairs now =.= i went to the leaders meeting and picked out songs for Jesus day. i been having such a tight schedule not even funny. now i gotta keep up dance practice, handball practice, preparing for Jesus day, and school!! i wish i can drop one or the other but i dont wanan drop anyone of them. dance practice has been going well and i think i can dance better then hb at this moment. leg is killing me!!! i cant even sleep on my left side T_T i hope it heals by wednesday! i went with horin to flower and watched people play. he treated me to ice cream ^_^ haven't had that in ages!

i been thinking a lot...i hope it can just stay as friends forever.

sunday ;D

i had a really awesome sunday. best day outta the whole week ^_^
went to service then cana and i skipped out on chinese school cuz i knew the teacher wouldn't be teaching us anything again today. but i don't want this to become a habit. today was my first day at the beach this year!! so happy cuz it was with cana people. but we didn't really get to play beach vball cuz it was too windy. we shoulda picked a warmer day but it was no one's fault that we went and did nothing beacause we all went. so all the people that went was me, diana, jessica, melissa[i think], justin, nelson, kingston, stanely, felix and tim. i felt bad when i left with justin and nelson cuz tim just came like a half hour before we left. we didnt do much anyways. i got a sunburn yesterday -.- still hurts. i dont wanna peel!!! the day was fine although i'm starting to get a weird feeling around some people. like sometimes i need my own space. but its too mean to tell someone to just move...

the only reason you start to like someone is because you hang out with them too often. so i should stop hanging out so much with him right?

handballl ;D

i went handballing today withe the usual;; justin and nelson but david came today ;D it was an awesome day!! the weather was so nice! although it did get hot every now and then i had an awesome time. justin got hit alot todays but then again he's attracts handballs x] me nd him went to kelly after. his parents drove us and we got a few good games there. i saw judy and alexs lol there were 2 there. i really miss it how we used to just joke around and i was closer to all of them. after we left cunningham wasnt even together anymore. everyone there now just scatters and the handballers there suck! no girls played after our year and probably when howard and them leave there will be no more good handballers. thats pretty sad cuz like there are good and bad years and maybe after them its gonna be bad for a while. i miss how we were so close together and now we're far apart in distance but our hearts are always close <3 just like judy we never forget each other <3 i guess we all grow up and things leave. alex taught justin a few things today...like how to whip lol he still doesnt know xD i had an awesome day that is and almost 10 hours of handball ;D

though i wish it was true wht a few of them said today, it's all up to fate...

nightmare,,,,does it have a meaning?

i had such a bad nightmare last night. it started out so weird and it included ghosts too. we were talking about ghosts at bible study so i guess it was still semi in my mind and when i was sleeping it came up. but it was like first it was some chinese school activity but then i saw cana people there like dana, and justin. i remember that we were separated into groups and dana and justin were in one group. there were games that some staff in chinese school was explaining. then while we were waiting to play dana and justins group went to play something. it was in a dark, foggy, and in the woods. they were on top of some trees and a plank in shape of a "s". then i remember dana falling off but right off the bat she looked like a ghost that was chasing me down. Then i think it was Debby that was there trying to help me and i was running away. i remember the thoughts in my mind at that time. i think it was questioning God. like i was asking Him why is a ghost chasing me. the rest was a blur, but this dream was so weird. like the setting and everything. i really wonder if it has some special meaning, like the people that i see in it and what happened...
another part of the dream i remember was something with Ocm then it was like in a big meeting room where there were groups of people there and they were arguing about something. but i remember one group of people won the arguement and said" if they take it then we will sue they for copyright infrigment"thats all i remembered from that part, then there was a guy in that same room fighting with an old lady that seemed to have been the one in charge of everything. the lasy i remember was then a ghost too and i was running around everywhere in that big building but i kept seeing her picture of the ghost pop up in front of me. this was really wierd. i remember tim saying that everything in our dreams had to have been something we've seen even if it was just a glance. but i dont remember seeing anything related to what im dreaming of.
then there was a last part. it was one a cruise trip. there was i think my cluster or just people there. there was guys and girls and we had to go in the shower rooms. the guys of course was in a different part of the place but there was the girls there and everything seemed normal til i was gonna walk out to get something but i had this uneasiness that a ghost was going to pop out. so i ran back into the yellow tiled shower rooms. and now that i think of it, its like the ones in the locker room at tech. then i remeber there was one shower head that was on full blast and i told someone to get out of the way. i went to one door but it was locked tight and shut, i tried kicking it but it wouldnt open! i panicked and the lights were off. the girls were all in one group, we went to the door that led to the boys shower room and they were done so we went in. but i kept getting that feeling that there was a ghost next to me and i was afraid to go anywhere alone. and from that we had to change ships so i went to thinking of another dream that included being on a ship and there were ghosts around....

these nightmares were so weird, like they had to have been something i glanced over but i dont remember one bit of these. they 're just different part and random images that pop up but only the first dream i had was with people i know in or at least i think so. but they were all including ghosts which we had a q&a on. i really wonder if these dreams have a meaning either. im gonna try to sort them out...

aliens are real?!

we had bible study and it was a continuation of q&a from last friday which justin and kingston missed. we talked about creation to aliens. stanley was like falling asleep then when he heard aliens his head just shot up LOL! we were talking that if aliens or other beings really do exist outside of the earth. if God had created human beings like us that are so complex, did he create anyone else? we spent the rest of the time there talking about that. then nelson mentioned something about a prayer team which seems pretty interesting but im so busy already im not sure if i can take up another thing =T i put hb team aside already for Seekers practice and dance practice. our show is on may 22. its getting really close!! we really gotta practice but like my schedule is so filled up!! I'm afraid that i took up too many things. so far i have chinese school, JAMS, church, Seekers, handball team, and dance group. SO MANY THINGS!!! arghhh i hope everything is gonna be alright. i went home pretty late cuz i thought nelson was still practicing but i couldnt find him and went home alone T_T so lateeeee
Another thing that crossed my mind today was what i shared on Sunday about choosing handball over church. I noticed some people really do choose handball over church and I really hope that when they hear my story they can change also. Handball used to be my everything, now God is who I'll concentrate on.

the good ol'days

to cunningham class of '08:
remember the days where we just hung out afterschool there and joked around. when everyone was there and it was so easy to find each. when we had each? without you guys school seems so lonely. me in tech is like no friends. no one to tell secrets to, no one to laugh with and no one to share your joy with. no one understands in tech. tech is so much different then how we used to be. it took 3 years for us to truly be friends and together forever. i really miss those days; carmens butt slapping ;] we used to do all that but now who is there to be with in school. half the year has gone by yet i feel closest to you guys still. i hope you still remember may 21, 2010. our date of reunion. i really hope everyone out there still remembers. i still remember how we used to make fun of those teachers and hang out in the hallways to see each other till the last minute. how in 7th grade i used to wait outside their classroom to greet them after lunch or homeroom. that was the time we learned to remember friends yet we had to leave each other so soon. the stupidest thing we ever had was "azn mafia" LOL i remember that. and when we roof handballs and someone had to run to ave u to buy one all the time. that one time i got hurt getting handballs that were being thrown off the roof. it was really nice and simple back then, there were no worries and nothing to be afraid of. even hearing highschool didnt mean much to mean. it's really till you get there you realize how much everything can change. nothing would be the same again. and you would realize that its how high school is. even though i can't go back to those good old days i hope you guys remember may 21,2010. when we can see everyone again<3

sharing my thoughts.

I've been so caught up lately on watching drama 1 litre of tears I didn't get the chance to write about my experience at 30 hour famine. 30 hour famine was really awesome. I had a lot of fun there. I got my mom to let me sleep over at OCM so I didn't have to make that long trip back and forth. I played nerf gun with the guys in the beginning. I think I walked in when they were still playing. Well I played a bit then HALO 3!!! I'm such a boy, liking Halo 3 >.> It's so fun and it was my first time winning in it but it wasnt really the shooting and guns. It was capturing the flag which i was alright at. I'm getting better at it though ;D then there was bible study and it was a q and a. Kassia had questions about dreams and it was pretty nice to hear the answers. Like dreams are just images that come in your head while your brain is resting, also dreams that you remember means that they were interuppted and when you dont remember them that means they were finished. It was so cool to hear that answer cuz like I had a bunch of dreams I could never remember x]
After that was a break and there was games!! We were in groups and coutries [tribes] I was Brazil and we were blindfolded and had to find food in the middle. Our group got the most!! I'm so happy that I was able to get 4 onions for my tribe so they won't starve. Then there was crossing the river to another place. Our group also won that both tries cuz the rules were a bit confusing. But we won either way ^_^ Then finally came praise night!! I personally love singing so I couldn't wait for it!! We sang Hungry, We are Hungry, Now that your near, Blessed be your name ect. Then there was a candle lighting thing that Debby made, 50 candles represented 50 kids that had died and we lite them up for those. Then FINALLY MANHUNT!! I wanted to play so badly but i sucked at it cuz i was still found =[ I hid in the back of the 7th floor near the exit sign behind this big metal thing. I guess it was an alright hiding spot but not good enough =T Nelson went in the construction room and it was madd funny cuz none of us could find him xD he was good!! Sardines came after that and Stanley had to hide and he was found by Tim at first then Tim kinda messed up the game cuz he thought that they could split up and then me Benny, David, and Tim hid in the prayer room and we locked it! LOL no one found us so it woulda been an awesome hiding spot!! we stayed for a pretty long time and hear some funny stuff. Then it was time to hit the bed. I did some homework and we all slept on the 3rd floor and I really wonder what the guys did...
The next morning we had to wake up early but i didnt >.< i stayed up to do homework and Diana was a wayyy heavy sleeper then I was. I signed up for City meals on wheels and went around giving food out to seniors. The first person we went to was really nice but we forgot to ask if she wanted us to pray for her. Then the second guy was a bit meaner and just wanted the food. The third lady was nice and she let us pray for her. I prayed for her and felt so happy that at least one person let us. I realized so many things doing this fast. Like that game we played getting food for our tribe was how people really were. I heard stories of Bowery mission of how the people that were too poor to buy groceries went there to get food and some were really rude but thats how it is for them. It seems normal for them to want more and fight over food cuz they can't afford more food. It's really saddened me that theres enough food for the entire world but kids in Africa are starving. I would actually go back to meals on wheels if i ever had time again. It was a really nice experience and Ms. Edwards was really nice that last lady. We broke the fast by eating sandwiches but the funny thing is I wasnt even that hungry compared to the guys. well they are guys but I wasnt hungry enough to eat a lot. Maybe doing these things got me to realize how hungry some people actually are. Thats why I wont' waste money on food and waste food. i learned so much from this experience.

Sunday.
Rocky had this activity where we share how God changed our life with 2 words or pictures. i put 2 pictures: one of me playing handball in kelly with the smokers around, and another of church with friends. Back then I would use my sunday morning before school to play handball and be around all these bad influences and was alone. But after meeting God I changed so much. Handball used to be my everything but now i have something else thats more important. I go to church instead of handball on sunday mornings no matter how nice the day is. I have friends now and even though there are these bad influences around me I try to keep them away. I was so scared when i went up to say this and nervous. But i hope i helped other people too. I was really nervous but Rocky said i did good. I guess he saw how nervous I was. I'm glad I did it and shared with everyone. Handball isn't everything.

writing is proof that i'm alive

omgsh i just finished watching 1 litre of tears special...it's so sad. even after all those years Asou still thinks of Aya, and she still lives in him. i really want to get the book now and learn only human on the piano. i got so many quotes from the drama too. writing is proof the i'm alive. i guess this is a good way to end spring break and go back to school tomorrow. i didnt finish my math hw. i'll probably try to do as much as i can tomorrow and maybe just give it in tuesday. im gonna try my best in school!

1 litre of tears

if you count all the tears i cried during this drama its probably gonna add up to 1 litre.

i finally finished watching 1 litre of tears..its so sad with A LOT of crying in the end and i don't want to spoil it for anyone but of course in the end Aya dies but her spirit lived on with everyone coming to visit her. i really want to know what happened to Asou-kun after she died, they gave a vague explaination and i wonder if they ever got married. they probably didn't though. i really want the book too!! it's based on the book which is basically her diary:1 litre of tears. the name is so meaningful cuz people actually DO cry 1 litre of tears after watching this whole drama. i found a blog where the whole book is translated but i'd rather buy the book myself and spend my time translating it myself. it has more meaning that way. i can't believe i finished this faster then Justin and he told me to watch it too xD i'm a sucker for tearjerkers :[ i wonder what my next drama wilｌ be...

well i haven't been updating this week so much fun this week!! today i went to the museum for my french project which was super long! i can't believe it was Nelson's first time at the museum though -.- i was wondering don't all elementry schools have trips to the museum? i guess the one he went to didnt lol. yesterday i spent most of my time in OCM youth corner. it was awesome, hotpot and cleaning all the tables in OCM. i think i'm getting better in halo 3 lol. i'm still the easiest person to kill though. i still gotta get mom to sign the permission slip for 30 hour famine i really wanna stay overnight!! 走走走走。。。　ｍｙ　ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ｗｒｉｔｉｎｇ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｏｍｐ　ｉｓ　ｈｏｒｒｉｂｌｅ　－。－

Easter Sunday

THE LORD HAS RISEN!
HE HAS RISEN INDEED!
It's Easter Sunday, the day our Lord Jesus Christ was resurrected and brought back to life. For He is the Son of God that He had the power to do so and in doing so he took away our sins.
today at church was amazing. i really liked Rocky's sermon and best of all 4 cana people got baptized. Tim, Faith, Nelson and Benny were baptized today. As i saw them and the other people get baptized there, it was people of all ages, young and old. i've just seen today how God can work in people's lives regardless of age and i read the short testimonies also. it shared how God worked in each of their lives. i really hope that one day i can be up there and be baptized myself. i know it will happen one day and my parents will accept it. that day will have to wait while i strive with my faith in God. i still have many years to learn more about God.
Lent also ended today and i baked like crazy in the morning so there will be food after the baptism. i'm glad people liked the cupcakes and it was smart not to put any frosting on it till i got there. some people didnt like frosting. it was actually a cool idea to bake cupcakes cuz alot of people gave up sweets for Lent and now that it ended they can enjoy my cupcakes ^_^ now i can finally enjoy pringles!!! i missed it so much and justin ate them right in front of me on saturdays D: i can't wait for 30 hour famine either!! i GOTTA convince my parents!

Good Friday

i went to Good Friday service today and youth corner after painfully waking up... the choir is really nice. it as my first time playing Halo 3 today, well it was my first time playing fighting games period! i kept getting killed tho T_T i couldnt aim... but i got a few kills lol whoever was one my team had to be better cuz i kept getting killed like i was the easiest target. imma play again on wednesday! it seems so far away tho =[ still gotta find something to do tomorrow. i can't go to jersey gardens. its too far and i gotta take grams home from ct, stupid trains are messed up and she doesnt know how to get home. i dont want her to get lost anyways. i'll prob go to dinner with them but not jersey gardens. i gotta find something to do till then =T im not that into handball now other then with justin and nelson cuz its mad funny!! i actually want to hang out with friends now lol xD but i actually wanna go shopping tomorrow!! hmms maybe i should go to kings plaza again ;D since jersey gardens is a no then kings plaza would be nice ^_^ maybe sarah and joyce is free too. they went bowling today =T well hopefully they're free tomorrow.

spring break!!

omgosh yesterday was the first day of spring break and i went ice skating. i didnt do as much jumps as i intended to but im still in alot of pain. when i fell it was like i couldnt move and it everything was numb... i gotta stop trying to do things i can't..well after that we went to kings plaza;me philip matt ricky and david. i got a bag there and philip got a shirt. i can't believe philip shops too! its like he has to look closely at the shirt and im like thats looks like a regular shopper there XD but all i wanted to get was a bag from ae :D i was gonna get it online but i didnt want to pay for shipping and handling fees but i forgot to bring my 20% coupon D: then we went to bedford but it was so crowded!!! so i ended up going to eat chinese food with them then going home. well i gotta go to Good Friday service now.

finally break

yo its finally break!!! i went to the lights out dance today and pretty crazy stuff i saw happen. ehmms vikii and her dancing... well nyways i rejected every guy that wanted to dance with me ;D lol hard to get? thats what they would think but i really didnt want to dance with random guys like that. i only went there for one reason... but i had fun dancing with vikii and jenny. i really dont like the pic that went on fb cuz thats not even me...i'm never like that but today was just a dance and i went crazy dancing with my girls. stupid simon was there D: i dont want to get viewed as a person that does things like that cuz i dont! never again will i go to a dance unless i have guys with me.
other then that crazy stuff i went to youth corner and everything went fine. i came home and wanted to talk to my mom about 30 hour famine and shes like i can't go now. before she said i can go too!! D: im getting really pissed about it too. i really wanna do this cuz i raised 200 dollars already. i worked so hard on this and i don't plan on giving up so easily. i will convince them somehow. God has it all planned out.
maybe today is just a really bad day for me cuz plans for tomorrow arent working out that well. not much people are going tomorrow for ice skating and i still gotta go cuz i got a few people going but i dont want this to be a waste of money. i really wanna skate and learn more stuff. like i learned a few things last time but i think i forgot it all already. =T felix wanted it to be a cana thing but people are busy tomorrow so hopefully when we plan something sunday it can work out. i dont mind going ice skating so much =) i just gotta saveeeeeee moneyy! i dont have that much money on me =[ and i gotta go bowling next week and jersey gardens. T_T maybe tomorrow artur can pay for me for something like skate rental? i need a job so badly right now. i plan so many things during break....maybe i shouldnt go jersey gardens cuz the tickets to go are 4 then coming back is 4 and i might get stuff there too. ughh i gotta stop planning so much. bowling is prob gonna be 10 and a few dollars for food. then again next week ice skating will be another 20... aiyah im running out of money!!! help!

in the rainy days...

i went there again today. it was a rainy and gloomy day. i got wet and soaked but i kinda liked it. i had the place to myself and i just sat there and started thinking. i would have stayed there longer if it wasn't pouring. i think i need another place now to take pics. I've been taking a lot of pictures there and i wanna go somewhere else to take pics. I'm thinking that place near belt parkway. i went there one time with sis to go best buy i think and the sunset there was nice. i like taking pics of nature now. its so relaxing just sitting at those rocks too. I'm definitely going to go there a lot. saddest thing was that the pictures i drew on the rocks washed away.. i wonder if life can wash away that easily. all that talk that day was nothing. it can wash away just like that picture did. i hope something like that day can happen again. so i can find another to let out my thoughts and draw it all out like i did... only he knows where it is.

beautiful scenery.

i went to that place again to skip rocks. its really nice there. its actually pretty crowded there. there was alot of people there today, but being made me think alot. the view there is mad nice too. i took alot of pics. i like taking pics of scenery. i should try to get photography next year. i really wanna get a camera too! well being there made me think alot about it but afterwards i realize how stupid i am to put myself in sadness every time im thinking. maybe thats why my sadness overshadows my happpiness. i just gotta remember that God is always there. i should never get to the point that im so sad i wanna just let go of life. i never wanna think of that agian.

skipping rocks.

yesterday was mad fun. battle of the bands ;D it was so loud i think i lost my hearing for a few seconds. lol. well after that me, Minje, Ada, Samantha, Florence, and Jenna went to the ocean and skipped rocks. it was right between the Manhattan bridge and the Brooklyn bridge in Brooklyn. the view there was mad and quiet too. i really like that place. i think I'll be going to there often now if I'm ever sad or its a nice day. its such a peaceful place. Minje brought us there. i skipped rocks a few times then drifted from the group to the rocks and just sat there. I'm a pretty sad and lonely person or maybe i just didn't fit into that group =T i feel so far away from people now, like I'm not that close to anyone either. i just like being alone and i realized how much sadness there is in this world...well all of them left cept for Minje around 730ish. i wanted to stay cuz it was such a nice place. i really didn't want to leave, but it had to rain D: and it got darker after Minje came back from walking them to the train. i really wanna find a better route to go there. i wonder if that place had a name too o.o it started raining and got darker so we went under the Manhattan bridge to stay dry but i still got a bit drenched. i got some pics of being there too.





well today i spent my whole day once again playing handball with Nelson and Justin and Olivia. it was so windy today and i think we've played in every kind of weather except for snow now xD adding today we've played in rain, wind, 20s and nice weather. all we're missing is snow i think xD i think i play better in ace now cuz i can't power as good with big ball =[ that's bad i wanna be good in both ace and regular. Nelson got us dumplings for lunch ;D it was so warm!!! i wanted to hold it but Justin wanted to eat hahas. im so gonna feel the pain tomorrow >.<

let the generosity go on

I've been really happy about the money I'm raising for 30 hour famine. so far I've got about 140 dollars! i really can't believe how well I'm doing with raising money. like within a week i think i can raise 180 dollars. I'm sure tomorrow i will get some money from people. I should ask some more teachers. i got Mr. Nguyen to donate 2 dollars. i really hope i can reach my goal of 360 dollars so i can feed a child for a whole year! i might get a lot from people in Chinese school and i actually hope i can get a lot. i got Paul and Ariel to donate already and derrick and Raymond owe me. they said they were going to donate. i like doing this kind of stuff cuz its so meaningful and its for kids in Africa. I'm pretty good in explaining everything to people too. I'm glad i got that part down and I'm not shy or anything. I'm also thinking of going to BCBC to see if they wanna donate to me but it's so far and i don't think i have time to go there this week. maybe during break and i have free time I'll stop by there and ask. I'm really happy that I can be so helpful with this kinda stuff. I like doing this actually and like what we did on the cpc cult fest. i guess volunteering for this kinda stuff is good for me :] i really hope i can actually stay on that day of 30 hour famine. i'm just one step away from going! i just gotta convince my dad. he's a little shaky on it but i'm sure i can convince him with the time left. going there would mean so much to me cuz i put so much effort into raising money and i don't want to not to the 30 hours and just raise money. some people actually gave me money cuz im actually fasting for 30 hours and seeing how kids in Africa actually have to go through. i asked so many people they probably recognize me x] well i can't wait for battle of the bands tomorrow.

passion of the Christ

we saw a movie in Seekers today, Passion of the Christ. it was so tearful yet amazing cuz thats what Jesus had to go through. there was a lot of bloody parts and i cried so much. Jesus had to endure so much pain and suffering. i bet if anyone saw that movie they will never say that there so much pain and suffering in their life cuz Jesus took it all for us. that movie was awesome. i wish there were more people that saw it today, not much people at Seekers that stayed till the end.
im really happy about how much i raised to 30 hour famine! in total i have $105. i thought i could do much better tho =[ cuz the other day i doubled that 42 to 85 and i thought i could get around 160 but i didnt get much luck so im hoping that tomorrow and sunday i will get more. alot of people seem to be doing this too in other churches so im a step behind with some people. but i got enought to get a bracelet but i really want to raise 360 so i can feed a child for a whole year! mr tao said that he would give me after spring break but i think i gotta give in money before that :[ mr tao might actually give me a lot cuz hes getting money back from taxes. i'd really like to be able to raise enough to support a child for a whole year. i really dont care about the rewards. i hope i have more luck tomorrow.