pieces of my heart

past few days i been studying for regents and reading alot.
Power of a Praying Teen...
it's like when i read i start to understand more...
i'm finding the lost pieces of my heart and slowly putting them back together.
forgiveness...breaking free from the past.
i been learning just so much from these chapters....
i sometimes find myself just falling apart. falling to a never ending road of nothingness
i try to fit those pieces of my heart together...
forgiveness can free myself from so much pain, but it's just so hard,
those past mistakes...
i'll never forget them, but can i ever forgive myself of them?
reading more and more i realize my mistakes of the past....

regents have been killing me. i think i just failed my bio regents...
love has been out of my reach and i can't seem to reach far enough
the closer i am the more distant i seem to be...
regents week should be relaxing but i just want it to end. being in church gives me somewhere to be and to feel at home. i just love playing the piano and Halo 3 there. just having fun with my brothers and sisters in Christ. he is there also, but i just can't seem to be close enough to him. she wasn't there. this is just a big love triangle....neverending.
i just wanna worship God with everything i have.