cny&valentine's day

today is indeed a special day. it's been ages since i blogged cuz there's been stuff going on. stella's message gave me an insight on love.
~how i love now is how i love in the future.
~love is not an emotion or feeling but a desicion and commitment.
i remember those quotes the most. we think about love so much that i come to question what is love. u never know who is the one. 2 samuel 13:1-19. that passage surprised me. i'd think stella would use a happy passage but this passage was about tamar being raped by her step brother anmon. the way anmon thought of love was an infactuation cuz he looked at tamar's body and not who she was. funny quote i remember was "girls love with their hearts, but guys love with their eyes" LOL super funny. like these things will actually make people think before they use the word love because it's so strong. infactuation is something i confess to. based on 1 corinthians 13:4-8, those are the words that describe the love we are suppose to have not only with your other half but with family and friends. love is not a noun, love is a verb...

many things happened this past month-ish. too much to say....i persevered through it all. i got many flowers this past week for a few people for valentine's day. they were nice. i got 3 roses today too. i was asked the same question and i gave the same answer. when valentine's day comes around all i think of is who God is going to lead me to in the future. love is not self-seeking.
i broke the chinese new year traditions and i'm finally able to be free sorta. i went to church the whole day instead of watching parades and lion dances. i'm happy to finally be renewed.

i think after today, i'll be more optimistic on some issues i have.