madd gong faw

im so not gonna get to sleep tonight T_T one month of school and i got madd hw already and my binder is already full. =(

it was funn at youth corner. at first we were chilling downstairs cuz Rocky wasn't there so there was no one looking after us. we were down there for a good hour with steve watching us on the camera but he didn't kick us out cuz we weren't doing anything bad and canceling youth corner was last minute. i heard boaz saw them down there before too. then barnes came down and he called steve and managed to get us to the 6th floor till 5:30. he was watching us and we left a bit before 5:30. it was so much funnn. there was actually people that saw the sign and left LOL they didnt call any of us. if they did then we coulda told them where to go. i was stuck downstairs for 10 mins cuz i didnt bring my phone with me and the elevator was locked. =( poor me then afterwards we were loitering in front of church and stella came! i love her car lol madd funn today :D and i got a ipod charger :]

mahjong!

i love playing mahjong now!! i was playing it the whole time while i was at jeremy's place. i didnt really want to play video games =T i wanted justin to play so he can whip out his super mahjong skills! LOL he's madd good. sam hui and jonathan aren't as great and i kept verbally abusing them xD and making fun of them although im not the greatest myself. haha it was super fun today and lunch was so worth it at chinese food place. i spent only $5.25 and the later a dollar on crybabys :] they're so addicting and i haven't eaten them in agesss! i gotta do hw! havent started yet >.<

happy birthday erica lei <3 my bestie since i've known her and forever will be.

partyyyahhh

went to erica's place to chill today for her birthday. her birthdays on monday but we went to hang out at her place. jeremy gave me his mini guitar but sarah broke a string when was tuning it. =( o well gonna get it fixed tomrrow hopefully. i just noticed today how far away im from my friends. i used to be madd tight with adriel, matthaeus, yilla joyce sarah and erica but now i feel so far from them. it's all my fault for never chilling with them though. i put all of my time to going to church and hanging out with church friends i seem to have left them out.....i gotta start hanging with them more often, i dont wanna lose them cuz they're important to me.

making my way downtown walking past through the crowd

thursday
making my way downtown walking past through the crowdddd.....with kingston ;D
we went together to give in video workshop forms then walked down lexington ave from 92st to 50s by king's school. he wanted to go to gap to get v neck shirts lol they look goood tho x]
well before i went with him there was a protest at school. the Westboro Baptist Church came to tech because we were so diverse and they were hating. my shirt was crazily full of stickers saying LOVE DON'T HATE! and gay people are HOT! yeppp i was a supporter because i hated the fact that they hate everyone and held up signs saying God hates you. they misinterpret the Bible ike crazyyyy...
friday :] bible study was funnn me <3 guitaring!
felix ngo gave me a call from Syracuse lol mad random. he's telling me to watch FAME II, the movie about Laguardia. i'll find time to watch that.

cleaning; scrubing up the rooms

the floors of 602 and 605 were so clean after we cleaned them. even when we went back in there to play, we took off our shoes and played in socks or bare feet. thats how clean it was and we didnt even want it to get dirty again. it was mad nicee! i even got the dirtiest corners!

making the floors clean is like what God does to our hearts, He scrubs our hearts clean of our sins and all the dirty stuff. the one thing thats different is though, we can make the floors dirty again because we're there so much of our times, then we gotta clean it again. but God never never puts sin in our hearts again even though he's there 24/7.

vball tryouts..

i failed...
i was so disappointed in myself. i put such high hopes up in getting on the team, and i didn't. it's like that old saying the higher hopes you have, the more disappointment... i can't believe i did so bad. i didn't know how to spike. the only thing i think i messed up on... wtheck. i know God didnt let me make it for a reason, maybe cuz i won't be able to manage everything. maybe it's the best for me. but i still feel the sadness inside of me.

guitaring

i love guitaring now. it gives me the peacefulness a piano does too...and it reminds me of people.

you never let go

we did it for youth service today. the sermon was about spiritual highs. i think so many people hit their spirituals highs at conference and worshiped really the experience but not the really reason why we had conference. it was really God's presence there that mad it awesome. i turned that spiritual high i had into my everyday faith cuz i know i need God in my life everyday. even though we are in spiritual highs and turn away from God, He never lets go...
oh no, you never let go
through the calm and through the storm
oh no, you never let go
through every high and every low
oh no, you never let go
Lord you never let go of me....
that song is just so meaningful. i spent some quality time with my friends today after chinese school. sadly i have the same teacher again... :[ i hope i learn stuff this year. she actually changed around seats and everything. i can't start going in late again or she'll kill me now lol i'm actually happy now i have real friends :] i dont feel that lonliness anymore.

finally hit me school started

it took a while before it actually hit me that school started. i haven't really been thinking about much since school started. all i thought about was doing my work. the first day was such a wower to me. i have almost the same schedule as last year. lunch 4th period again =[ i feel like a freshman again but i have a super hard french teacher T_T i hate her. she's so mean. i have dana in my english class and i know a few other people in my classses. i'm so glad that i have my gaw ricky in my lunch period again :] just like last year. i been at church the past week and it's really filled me up. the best thing was i still feel my heart full from conference. although there's many things hapening at home i'll pray and hope for the best. i put all my trust in God. cuz...
i will fear no evil
for my God is with me
and if my God is with me
whom then shall i fear?
whom then shall i fear?

prayer and testimony...renewed SC'09

i want to start from the very beginning of summer conference.
day 1
being at church, helping pack up the bus with equipment and stuff needed. since i applied for scholarship i needed to do this and most people that got scholarship did. it was a beautiful morning and i got some breakfast before getting on the bus. it was a while wait but we got everything on with everyone's help and i got on the bus after everyone did. it was pretty funny, right before the bus was gonna leave and he's like anyone forget anything...kingston comes out saying he forgot his guitar! LOL so he ran back to church and the 6th floor to get it. kingston had his guitar on the whole bus ride and benny had his baby with him the mixer lol he didnt trust it being on the bottom with the luggage or with the other equipment. so the bus ride started at around 9:45 and i slept for alot of the ride. i get bus sick even with eating the medicine =( i ate alot of snacks during the whole ride and slept alot. i had my pillow with me <3>.< either ="(" mud ="[" meeting ="[">.< i almost spilled the coffee going there.
the rest of my time there was awesome. just leaving there though....i loved the place. it was so beautiful and peaceful....a place to just be there and praise God.

summer conference

it was just amazing,
so life changing.
this was my first conference, and i loved it. the worship and praise, i sang my heart out. with my arms high and heart abandoned, i gave it all. i realized there's so much to do for God. and He can do so much. prayer concert and testimony night just touched me so much. i felt God's presence right there next to me through both nights. prayer is so important, i've only just realized it this weekend.

i feel so renewed.

ka-la-oh-kay!

karaoke was mad awesomee today. i had an awesome time singing and some of those songs were from the bottom of my heart. meant for this person...
i have mad videos on fb :]
at first i thought something was wrong but there wasn't anything. but i can really see how much <3 there is for her, and theres just so much in my mind. arghhhh

im talking to him again :] he IMed me, i'm glad friendships can last.

leaving for conference tomorrow morning.

sunset glow.

i loved the sunset glow at battery park. it was so beautiful. God's creation is just so amazing. i wish there was someone that enjoyed it also though.

im starting to think again...

new camera!

i finally got my new camera today!!! i'm so happy! well at first i was thinking i dont really need it cuz theres gotta be loads of people at conference with cameras but i want to have my own memories. i want to take pictures that have special meaning to me. i want to remember people. i love taking pictures of landscapes too, it's just so beautiful. i got a sony cybershot w180. it's red.i like it. it was pretty cheap too...

every time i think about it, he pops in my head now, i dont know why... i don't get how...